When it doesn’t feel comfortable anymore…

this blog has been in my draft for more than five months now... i forgot why i wasn't able to post it but when i saw it again... i felt that this is the right time to post it.

I'd rather be silent. Run away. Escape. Or just evaporate from that situation… But it was going through those uncomfortable moments that I've learned. I'm glad that I didn’t escape and run away.

It's happening again. I'm facing uncomfortable situations that I thought of escaping. But I want to learn the lesson that goes with it. So I choose to stay and face the fears... the discomfort...

One of the greatest lessons in life, I have learned in Faith Bible College. I could have just escaped it if I wanted to but I chose to stay because I want to be a better person and to be prepared for the greater task the Lord has for me. And I am glad I did. I stayed I endured. It was painful and I have caused so much pain also to the teachers and even to my mom. Simple rule I couldn't follow but I tried even if it meant giving up my own comforts and "joys". If I didn't learn until now I would be a headache to my leaders.

I remember saying a prayer to God during those uncomfortable moments that may He give me the grace to go through the situation as I submit to Him as He was molding me and preparing me... I won't forget those moments that i brought headache and heartaches because i choose to do things my own way and wouldn't want to follow...

now I am experiencing the reverse having some people giving me heartaches and headaches by not doing simple tasks and responsibilities. Having been in their situation, I think I understand how they think and feel... but being on the other side this time... it wasn't comfortable for me also to confront people because I hate to be hated. But I have to even if it doesn't feel comfortable again...